We’ve been together 10 yrs. and all I’ve ever wanted was to be his wife and year after year and 2 kids later I had to basically beg to get him to ask me. When I told him that I don’t want to do it just because he felt bad for my crying about it and I want it to be something he wants too he said he does but I just don’t believe him. I can’t rely on my feelings and emotions because they are so out of wack right now due to the ridiculously stressful life I’ve subjected myself too, so 1 min he’s awesome and the next I wish I could just pack up and be gone, but it’s never that easy. I do suffer from depression and anxiety and I know I am not an ideal girlfriend but I bend over backwards and do flips for this man something that I rarely see from him. I put him through a lot with my mood swings and just plain ol psychoticness but I feel justified in my bad treatment of him because I feel like I’ve given so much of myself to him and his family without any regard for me and my feelings. In my heart I feel like I will never be his first priority and that his mother and sister will always come first and it makes me so sad and it really hurts to think that we’ve spent so time together and been through so much, I’ve slept in hotels/cars with him for 3 years, had 3 abortions because he told me the pregnancy was my decision and we really can’t afford to have children so I thought I was doing what he wanted me to do,
I wash his clothes,
clean the house,
take care of the kids,
pay the bills (which I have not been doing lately because I don’t know why I just get so stressed)
allow his mother and sister to live with us because they get evicted (3 times now more than 6 months each situation)
becoming more sexual
play taxi (at least twice a week I have to pick either him or his mother up after I just worked a 9 hr shift being up since 4 am and sitting in traffic for hours, the list can go on but I do love this man although I think he can be such an ass because if I complain about doing any of the things listed above then I am not being a team player and I wonder wtf is he talking about because I am the team!!! But on the other hand he is sweet, he used to make me laugh but now I’m always so mad his jokes aren’t funny, I know he is a good man and together we can make things happen but I am really scared that I will not be made a priority and that I will end up hurting myself if I continue to stay I just want some peace and to be able to have our place/space to really grow up I am 27 and he is 29 and neither of us have ever really lived on our own except for our short 6 month breaks when I decided we need to move and get our own. I love his mother and sister but I want them to have their own lives and home and let us raise our family together and stop being so selfish but will I ever really be #1 to him and if we get married will he realize that he is now our family LEADER and take that responsibility seriously or will I continue to be the underdog although I am putting out the most results someone please help me I am at a loss!!!
I put the details because I kind of need to vent also, I feel like an idiot when I try to talk to my friends or family because I don’t want to appear needy, I am currently in therapy to try and make some type of sense of my life and get it on track so I can be more productive for my children. Thank you all for even taking the time to read through all that and giving your advice I really appreciate it alot :0)!!
last addition, the reason I have to play taxi is because he and I are the ones with cars, his mom and sister’s cars were repo’d about 2-3 years ago and they have been relying on us to get around or driving his truck because I won’t let them take my car if it’s not work related.

I have been on my medication for 4 years now. I tried to get off of them because my husband and I want a baby. I realized how important for my function it was to be on the medication. I am on Effexor now on the lowest dose and take it every other day. I am not too happy with the research that has been done. Does anyone have a better idea? Please help me!

You are about to discover more information about ovarian cysts during pregnancy and how to treat the cysts that are safe for you and your baby.

It is actually common for women to suffer from ovarian cysts during pregnancy and usually these cysts are not dangerous and do dissolve. However, it does not change the fact that these cysts can cause much discomfort and pain to the mother.

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While there are many conditions that can bring about Ringing Ears Pregnancy symptoms or Tinnitus you should take note of anything that happens to you during this time. It’s important to know that not everyone hears the same things and sounds may range from ringing to running water.

Regardless of why Ringing Ears Pregnancy happens it can still be a major bother to you and can be made even more frustrating by your state of health. Being pregnant brings on its own set of emotional challenges and a minor annoyance before might be a major problem now. But the major questions of what it is and how to get rid of it still remain.

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My period was due Friday, I’ve had no symptoms except being really hungry until today. I’ve had this feeling that I’m going to throw up and it has been coming and going all day. Also, I’m experiencing a lot of anxiety. I’ve heard stories of panic attacks during pregnancy. I know that nobody on here is a human pregnancy test and can detect HCg, but what do you think before I run out and buy a pregnancy test? I’m trying to play the waiting game.
Now that you mention it, I AM pretty sure that the nausea and anxiety are linked. I’ve suffered from panic attacks since I was a kid, so maybe the fact that my period’s late and I’m experiencing some mild symptoms, I’m freaking out.

Congratulations if you have just come to know that you are pregnant. Everybody must be telling you so many things about the different stages of pregnancy now. Right! It is true that now you must know how you as well as your baby with grow with pregnancy week by week. You must keep adequately well-informed so that you do not panic at the drop of the hat any time during your pregnancy!

So, What Are These Stages of Pregnancy?

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If you’re thinking about a career in acupuncture you’ll want to learn how and where you can earn a certificate or degree in acupuncture. Perhaps you’re already familiar with the field of acupuncture but if not you’ll want to find out all you can both online and offline. It’s thought that acupuncture has been practiced in China for at least 2,000 years and some think it’s probably been practiced at least 3,000 years or so.

First of all you’ll want to choose an acupuncture school that offers consultation services for its graduates. The schools that do, allow graduates after graduation, to consult with instructors regarding care of their patients. You’ll also want to check to see if your state is on the national list of about 49 acupuncture schools with accredited programs and you’ll want to find an acupuncture school that offers smaller classes.

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Healthy parents raise emotionally healthy babies and a mother’s influence towards the same is great. No body can deny it. Hence it is imperative that females should have good mental health. The reality is, about 20 to 25 percent of women suffers with depression in their life time against 7 to 12 percent of men. This shows that women are very much prone to depressed than men. Depression strikes older women more often than men

In addition to environmental stressors and psychosocial factors, women are also influenced by biological factors to get depressed. That is why women are much prone to getting depressed than men

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I am wondering will my use of the medication during my pregnancy hurt my unborn child?

I’m going on 11 weeks in my first pregnancy and I just started having major anxiety/panic attacks in the last 4 to 5 days. I start to feel as if I can’t breathe, start shaking, horrible chest pains, dizziness…basically I just feel so terrified that I feel as if I am going to die. I know this sounds horrible, but it just seems like all of my excitement about my pregnancy has just completely disappeared. I’m left feeling empty and just wish this pregnancy would be over. After going through horrible morning sickness ALL day long, every single day I’ve lost every bit of my appetite and now with the panic attacks. I’m starting to hate leaving the house because every time I have in the last week I start having a panic attack I just don’t know what to do anymore. I am having major anxiety about even having to go to the doctor. I don’t even know if I can stand sitting in the waiting room. I have no idea how to even talk about this to my doctor without sounds like a complete insane person as I feel I am now. My husband is acting like it’s all in my head and in reality I know it’s not. It’s just been horrible from people judging me because I couldn’t hold any food or my vitamins down and saying how my baby is not going to be healthy to these terrible panic attacks. I’m just so upset. Any words of encouragement to get me through this?